In the Dark
In the interest of meeting my once weekly posting goal, here is a post!
What is it about Leda?
That, my friend, is a very good question.
I guess we can go back to the tried and true depression post. After all, a friend of mine died today.
April has been a real piece of shit month. First the abortion, then my dog, now one of the sweetest most wonderful human beings to ever walk the earth has passed away. It’s a lot to handle for the sanest of people. For me, it’s like stumbling into traffic and getting hit repeatedly.
My buddy had been battling a pretty rare form of mesothelioma for a while so as much as we wanted to believe she was going to make it, we all knew our time with her was limited.
As an atheist, I do not believe in the power of prayer. I do however believe that your attitude and outlook has a huge impact on your physical health which is why I thought for a while there that she was going to make it. She always had a smile on her face and wanted the best for everyone. She was always there for me with a kind word, even when she was sick. A few weeks ago when I was pregnant and getting ready to move into my new apartment, I posted a photo of a rainbow on instagram. My caption said that I was closing another bad chapter and ready to start a new one. Her response was so sweet and instantly made me feel happy; I might never look at a rainbow the same way again.
“Sending you lots and lots of rainbows! You will find your pot of gold very soon pretty lady! Xoxo“
Thanks Mama, with your encouragement I feel compelled to look a little longer.